conclusion. [Sun Mar 2007 at 11:24am] [ mood | optimistic ] i decided to recheck myself into work the last 2 days for some extra cash i'll need this break  in total i spent 8 hours with him, and it hurt it really brought me back to everything, of how much attention he  gave me, building up in my mind that he wanted to pursue something then realizing he had one night stand written across his forehead and it wasn't even worth a shopping-spree, that's hardly even a shopping spree since i hardly make anything anyways but looking back on this journal, it reminds me of all that, then in the summer names like kevin and colin stand out none of which have a meaning in my life anymore this isn't me. and i want something new.  so i made a new journal and added a few whose friend pages i actually read    aashhlleeyy   1 comment

WEEK SUMMARY: [Thu Mar 2007 at 10:47pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | cupids CHOKEhold ] i called colby spencer by accident i make a great first impression i studied and studied and studied for mr downey's class but we're meeting tommorrow over my unfortunate grade that is if new england isn't hit by snow or tornados the play's on saturday! i'll be wearing one of the shirts  for sasha's name because i love her name and because she's sasha never realized frankenstein was the scientist's name,  not the monster's learning about darwinism makes me sad to think of so much i was told to believe and still am every sunday  i want to rent the marie antoinette dvd! i hope i'm never text-message broken up. 2 comment

[Sat Feb 2007 at 8:14pm] [ music | boys of summer ] i just looked through the entry posted on the main lj page about two users who fell in love! their story is really really cute and i had ice cream at the same place in boston they did! yep, well today flew by i went to the hockey game with greta to meet up with maggie and colby (who btw, she gets a two thumbs up for this one)  he's really sweet and nice and it was good to get to know him then sasha came towards the end and let me say, by the end of that game we could list who about  7 of the players were, and everyone else blended in together exeter was playiing on the rink next to us, and i saw matt pope who reminded me of someone else, and i prayed dear lord i wouldn't happen to see someone who is currently his friend, and greta was as much relieved as i was to not see him, because i would have thrown up on her speaking of throwing up, if i see heather or angela or kevin or basically anyone  else at mb, i will throw up as well, which is why grets and i are getting jobs at water country! lifeguards that is which is something i've never done but  have wanted to try and guys would be great i guess theres applications online, so i'll be checking it out so much for snowboarding this weekend and my hands hurt from guitar hero greta and i rocked out on so thats it for today! 2 comment

[Sat Feb 2007 at 8:49pm] [ mood | satisfied ] tomorrow i'm taking up snowboarding? bring it. comment

winter love. [Mon Jan 2007 at 11:25am] [ mood | distracted ] ive got the only power in the house the roads are bad im stranded here i wish i lived in a dorm and could sneak into the room down the hall its the party scene where everyones been drawn to because the powers out and i'll grab the hand of the boy in my chemistry class i secretly have a crush on  except really i don't have the nerve to so my roomate who knows my secret grabs both our hands and we all go outside and slip around on the ice and throw snowballs our laughter distracts us from my roomate's disapperance with her own boy and the cold january breeze drifts me into his dorm room and i'll be noted missing till the morning. comment

history starts now [Sun Dec 2006 at 1:13pm] [ mood | awake ] last night is such a blur all the emotions i had for lyle spilled out of me  i dont know when i fell asleep ive never felt that hurt and that upset over a person like this i needed last night to happen though i needed to just tear him apart in my mind like he tore me apart mentally and physically you wont see this girl crying over him ever again reality finally set in and i'm completely over him from all of this i've learned a lot a whole lot that just because a guy "flirts with you"  doesnt mean anything you need to give it more time don't rush into anything don't make the decision that this is the guy for you after the first date give it a few more so you know you both feel the same way for eachother and if he doesn't call you back  for whatever the reason that's a major sign he doesnt feel the same you do leave him. he's not worth running after i dont ever want to feel this humiliated  ever again, so im keeping my guard up its a new year and im starting over loveee can come find me ill be waiting patiently :) 2 comment

[Sat Dec 2006 at 7:31pm] i absolutely love this time of year scratch that until this god damn tests are over with. i haven't spoken to anyone since friday afternoon if i don't go mad by the end of today, it will be a miracle. 6 comment

[Wed Dec 2006 at 7:16pm] [ mood | refreshed ] i'm saying goodbye. goodbye to falling asleep teary eyed to dwelling over the stupid stuff girls supposidly need in their lives when this is such a big world we're living in who says things have to be this way or that they don't. there's so many people out there we're yet to meet and even more we will never meet so who cares about those you see now that mess with your mind that make you feel so completely meaningless that you'd rather not wake up because they're just one person and they will have nothing over you unless you let them. i want to wake up  anxious of what the day will bring me i want to live in wonder i want each day to bring me something new there's too much i havent done so instead of DWELLING over it i would like to go out there and do it. do it all ! and sometime i will be saying this again because it's never too late to just live a little comment

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