i could be violet sky

conclusion.

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 16:45:35 GMT

i decided to recheck myself into work the last 2 days
for some extra cash i'll need this break
in total i spent 8 hours with him, and it hurt
it really brought me back to everything, of how much attention he
gave me, building up in my mind that he wanted to pursue something
then realizing he had one night stand written across his forehead
and it wasn't even worth a shopping-spree, that's hardly even a shopping spree
since i hardly make anything anyways

but looking back on this journal, it reminds me
of all that, then in the summer names like kevin and colin stand out
none of which have a meaning in my life anymore
this isn't me. and i want something new.
so i made a new journal and added a few
whose friend pages i actually read

aashhlleeyy

WEEK SUMMARY:

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 04:00:30 GMT

i called colby spencer by accident
i make a great first impression

i studied and studied and studied for mr downey's class
but we're meeting tommorrow over my unfortunate grade
that is if new england isn't hit by snow or tornados

the play's on saturday! i'll be wearing one of the shirts
for sasha's name because i love her name and because she's sasha

never realized frankenstein was the scientist's name,
not the monster's

learning about darwinism makes me sad to think of
so much i was told to believe and still am every sunday

i want to rent the marie antoinette dvd!

i hope i'm never text-message broken up.

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 01:26:41 GMT

i just looked through the entry posted on the main lj page
about two users who fell in love! their story is really really cute
and i had ice cream at the same place in boston they did!
yep, well today flew by
i went to the hockey game with greta to meet up with maggie and colby
(who btw, she gets a two thumbs up for this one)
he's really sweet and nice and it was good to get to know him
then sasha came towards the end
and let me say, by the end of that game we could list who about
7 of the players were, and everyone else blended in together
exeter was playiing on the rink next to us, and i saw matt pope
who reminded me of someone else, and i prayed dear lord i wouldn't happen to see
someone who is currently his friend, and greta was as much relieved as i was
to not see him, because i would have thrown up on her
speaking of throwing up, if i see heather or angela or kevin or basically anyone
else at mb, i will throw up as well, which is why grets and i are getting jobs at
water country! lifeguards that is which is something i've never done but
have wanted to try
and guys would be great
i guess theres applications online, so i'll be checking it out

so much for snowboarding this weekend
and my hands hurt from guitar hero greta and i rocked out on
so thats it for today!

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 01:50:40 GMT

tomorrow i'm taking up snowboarding?
bring it.

winter love.

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 21:28:58 GMT

ive got the only power in the house
the roads are bad
im stranded here

i wish i lived in a dorm
and could sneak into the room down the hall
its the party scene where everyones been drawn to
because the powers out
and i'll grab the hand of the boy in my chemistry class
i secretly have a crush on
except really i don't have the nerve to
so my roomate who knows my secret grabs both our hands
and we all go outside and slip around on the ice and throw snowballs
our laughter distracts us from my roomate's disapperance with her own boy
and the cold january breeze drifts me into his dorm room and i'll be noted missing till the morning.

history starts now

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 18:28:26 GMT

last night is such a blur
all the emotions i had for lyle spilled out of me
i dont know when i fell asleep
ive never felt that hurt and that upset over a person like this
i needed last night to happen though
i needed to just tear him apart in my mind
like he tore me apart mentally and physically
you wont see this girl crying over him ever again

reality finally set in and i'm completely over him

from all of this i've learned a lot
a whole lot
that just because a guy "flirts with you"
doesnt mean anything
you need to give it more time
don't rush into anything
don't make the decision that this is the guy for you after the first date
give it a few more so you know you both feel the same way for eachother
and if he doesn't call you back
for whatever the reason
that's a major sign he doesnt feel the same you do
leave him. he's not worth running after

i dont ever want to feel this humiliated
ever again, so im keeping my guard up
its a new year and im starting over
loveee can come find me
ill be waiting patiently :)

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 03:33:38 GMT

~~i absolutely love this time of year~~

scratch that until this god damn tests are over with.
i haven't spoken to anyone since friday afternoon
if i don't go mad by the end of today, it will be a miracle.

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 03:29:58 GMT

i'm saying goodbye.
goodbye to falling asleep teary eyed
to dwelling over the stupid stuff girls supposidly need in their lives

when this is such a big world we're living in
who says things have to be this way or that
they don't.

there's so many people out there we're yet to meet
and even more we will never meet
so who cares about those you see now
that mess with your mind
that make you feel so completely meaningless
that you'd rather not wake up
because they're just one person
and they will have nothing over you
unless you let them.

i want to wake up
anxious of what the day will bring me
i want to live in wonder
i want each day to bring me something new
there's too much i havent done
so instead of DWELLING over it
i would like to go out there
and do it. do it all !

and sometime i will be saying this again
because it's never too late to just live a little

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 02:48:46 GMT

(I DONT MEAN FOR THIS TO BE ALL IN CAPS-in the process of fixing it)

i'm exhausted even though i did nothing today
besides eat the big thanksgiving dinner
which seemed like any other meal
since our relatives have like, shunned us

i wanted to hang out with you know who this long weekend
which would have worked out perfectly
since i have time all of a sudden to do something fun

i did something fun last night though
i went to see BORAT!
i haven't laughed that hard in a long time
and i loved how we planned this whole thing to sneak into it
then in the end
we didnt even have someone check our tickets
ha haaa

okay maybe i'll go to bed
or i'll sit here and wait for him to sign on
then sign off like a minute later
without any words exchanged

that's how its been going
i'm crazy for still having hope.

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 01:43:30 GMT

i've been talking to lyle alottttttt recently

i really like him.

he seems so perfect

we were talking last night
and i felt like something could happen between us
but i might be jumping to conclusions

i don't know too much about him though

hes a junior at exeter and plays soccer

thats all i know haha
and i'd love to know moree
oh and hes friends with matt pope i guess?
which is not the best of news

but i feel like i actually mean something when i'm with him
:)

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 20:07:02 GMT

hmm i feel like procrastinating
so i'm not attempting my hw yet
chem project i have what 2 NIGHTS to do??? cause my name got picked first
how lucky.

i have drivers ed tonight
dans in my class
its kinda cool like knowing someone in a class like that
everyone else are wicked stoners
we have 10 min breaks when we just go in the pitch black alleyway
its like this little room in a place i didnt even realize existed in exeter
my mom like couldnt fit the car so she dropped me off
and i walked back and forth and i was like WHERE IS THIS PLACEE
then this ladies like "over therreeeeeeeee" i didnt see her at first and it was creepy
OH and when i walked in the first person i see sitting there is
NEIL DOCKERY.
what the hell and like alex passons in it too
this sweetheart named liz who knows monique
my seat has grafitii on it
it's a pretty chill place
then yesturday i went driving and ryan goldsmith was in my car
he got kinda hott but of course i had my eye on the road ;]

ok blahhh i need some expresso
then i gotta sit down and finish this stuff before tonight!
oh and its funny how much people changed this year
i've said like 3 words to abbie this year. yaa...???
but i dont have time to think about it right now
nope gotta search up some isacc newton facts! WOO!

latahh<3

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 21:43:56 GMT

where'd the summer go !?!?!

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 01:07:25 GMT

so i was bored
and decided to make my own
LAYOUT!
new colors and everything
i've never made one before
so if it looks like crap
let me know!

goodnight<3

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 15:57:47 GMT

sooo i left for work fine yesturday
and came back sickk
againnn
todays kevins last day
ITS ALSO JASONS LAST DAYY :[
which makes me sad that i have to wait till christmas to see him

so since i'm still "recovering" from this on-going sickness
not too much has happenedd
julias bringing her brother to college tomorrow and is staying there like the whole week?? i guess
im going to gretas beach house wednesdayy
friday i'm going with my mom to a memorial thing for my grandpa at the temple
i feel bad she doesn't want to go alone with my grandma
she feels like she's an embarassment :/
since idk all her old friends will be there
so i'm joining her!

so not too much going on that i know of
i need to go shopping
i also still need to read lik 300 more pages for summer reading
which i should probly start doing

klatahh<3

an update

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 04:32:54 GMT

i'm in such a good mood right now i feel like UPDATING!
updating on lifee
even though my lifes a bore at the moment
what cann i sayy? i'm sick.
it's summer how do you get sick right?
my neighbors. thats how.
i babysat for 3 obnoxiously sick children the other day
which concluded in me getting sick as well
i still haven't thanked them

i just watched laguna's season 3 premiere
um kyndra or watever is such a bitch!
like she beats kristin on that one
and her friends are annoyingly fake
and being fake i think is the worst quality a person could have
fake spoiled and rich
atleast they make the show fun to watch! :P

i talked to kevin again about the whole issue
he was lame and said all this "i can't believe you've never been kissed" shit
here is someone who PLANS OUT when he's gonna kiss someone to them on IM
so he shouldn't even be talking about the subject watsoever.

i hate when guys cut girls down on how far they've been
ughhhh it makes me mad.
MAD MAD MAD.
i ended the convo right there i was so mad
cause believe me, it's not the first time he's brought it up
he makes me sound like some prude which i'm not
i just don't wanna do anything with him YET
i mean i guess i haven't really made up my mind officially over my decision
haha "my decision"
i feel like im on The Bachelorette and i'm deciding who to give my rose to
even though theres only 3 guys on the show
and only 1 i know of would actually want the rose
STILL i need to think about it !!! haha

uhh i can't fix this lj cut
so we're just gonna have to deal with that
OH! one more thingg

jessica! you made my night from whaat you said!!
i'm really happy and i hope things work out : ]
i feel like im not sick anymore haha
which is great improvement since i've felt like crap the last few daysss : x

kgnightt<3

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 22:03:45 GMT

i'm sitting here on the steps updating
cause i feel like it
on my laptop which i had to pry out of ryans hands
even though its mine
and he shouldn't be using it

yesturdayy i went driving for likee an hour on REAL ROADS people
yes. real roads peoplee
i cant waiit till i get a car
my own car
which my parents mentioned to me about
and YA im getting one
woot.

maggies leaving for camppp which sucks
cause man i havn't seen herr since i got back from VA
my uncles coming form wisconsin like tomorrow actually
which im psyched for
so now i can see my cousinn and do family thingss for a few days

then hmm lets see
julia and abbie-need to see them
greta needs to get her ass over here
ALLISON wants to hang out too after my uncles visit and wen she gets back homee
grantt i wanna def see soon i miss that kid

oh and the word on kevin
he asked me out yesturday
which is so sudden i wasn't expecting it
like at all
i'm confused with lovee right now
idk who i like
like i'm not in love with him
and he's going to college next year
so realistcally
it could never workk
it's funny how things turn out tho
and i'm flattered
like a COLLEGE kid finds me attractive?
jeez

welll okay long updatee and i can smell dinner
speaking of food i've been cooking a lot recently
it's fun
tonightt im going shopping for a bit
to spend some work moneyy on clothes
always fun :]

latahh<3

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 01:02:17 GMT

whoa someone hasnt updated in a while have they.
kinda a lots gone on too.
likee another beach day with miss greta.
aka chasing surfer boys by running into their "area" and following them along the tide haa
or in some cases wed swim against the tide
we're losers. i love it.

OH! julia came back. yayy! she like climbed the appalachian mt's for 2 weeks
serious props to her. shes my hero i could NEVER do that! <333
we went to watercountry the other day to celebrate her return back to the real world
it was fun fun

OH but before this i went to virginiaaaa. woot. 12 hour drive. with my family. LOVELY.
tho busch gardens was fun
our hotel tho had like this indoor water park with slides, a whirl pool thing, and a wave pool
and did i mention the lifeguards were H O T T.
ha and the whirl pool there were these buckets of water that would randomly splash down on you
and one of the lifeguards would pour the buckets down on me every time i went by
then he like jumped in and turned me and my little tube over i was lik wtf kid.
but i forgave him. hes was damn finee.

i had this airbrush tatoo thing and one kids like "sweet, is that real"
even tho there was a stand right outside
i was like "pshh ya"
"how old are you?"
"18"
dumbass.

aha i love lying.

anyways! HILLS are coming on so i gotta make this fast
i effing missed like the last 4-5 ep's and missed the marathon
god damn never know what time it is anymore.

OH! hahaa have i mentioned kevin in this thing yet?
well me and gretz used to fantasize over a kid named kevin who works with us
he came over yesturday.
first i met him with greta at the fair

and
2 minutes till my show.

i'll have to save it till next time
i'll update soon i promise.

latahh<3

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 02:21:39 GMT

so me and julia stayed up in york last night

in this mansion.

literally.

her friends own it and we went up to stay for the night.

it was amazing. :]

my day.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 21:49:59 GMT

today was fun fun fun
went to the beachhhh with gretaaa
which i haven't been to since i went with magz and julia

we stalked some boys we thought were cute
one guy's board was rainbowed stripes
greta thought he was gay
atleast his board was pretty

then in the bathrooms
a women in the stall next to greta was talking to her
and was like "so what's the plans for later today?"
and started to carry on a conversation.
turns out she thought greta was her friend dawn
it was funny. but sketchy.

then we walked through a family's game of football
by accident.
and they yelled after us "SHOW A LITTLE RESPECT, HUH!!"
and we turned around
and laughed.

then we went to the movies
and saw pirates of the caribbean 2
it was the hottest. movie. ever.

latahh <3

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 04:33:54 GMT

sooo at work today
i met jason

i had to go "break-down" in the aisles and at first it was lonely
with backstreet boys blaring.
it was just great.
and i guess i stacked the Folgers Coffee completely wrong
so i hear "did someone ask you to do this? cause you're doing it wrong"
i turn around and find this cute boy standing there smiling

we ended up talking for a total of like 3 hours
while i went back every once in a while for like 5 min to my register
but luckily the store was dead. so i got to go back to where he was

it was great to talk to him.
i felt so comfortable. i didn't care what he thot of me. i was myself.
i feel like i've known him forever. it's weird
at first i felt like i was stalking him or something so i'd slowly make my way down the aisle. away from him
but then he'd end up following me, on the other side.
i felt like i was in a movie.

it was super cuteee.

EDIT:

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 23:58:49 GMT

immaturity sucks.

a lotta people need to grow up.

and considering people to be immature just cause of their age is even worse.

k. that's all i needed to say.

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 00:47:31 GMT

weekend
please come now
thanks.

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 16:27:42 GMT

ugh cavities today :[
tomorrow melis is coming over!!!
then plans w/juliaa later in the week
busy busy busy
ha not really but watever i need to get off my lazy ass!
lately i've just been sitting around by the pool reading
which means it's gotta be a good book if i'm reading it
AND IT IS

both from writer of Gossip Girls:
The It Girl
Notorious

fabulous reads i recommend going out and buying them now.

i already can't effing wait till the weekend.

latahh.<3

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 23:10:06 GMT

i've started workingg
i wasn't going to but everyone else is so whyyyyy not?

there's some hotties too

which is always a plus :]

oh! and greta's coming to joinnn me!

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 18:49:11 GMT

i'm ashley

this is likeee my 3rd? idk why. i get bored with them

FRIENDS?